"This piece is Acrylic Painting on a canvas.
This started out as an accidental heart...then I tried to make some chakra/rainbow representation...but the canvas turned and I got back to my waterscapes. It was fun, it was spontaneous, it was messy, and most of all distracting.
Recovering from an eating disorder takes some trial-and-error, and A LOT of mind games. In order to love yourself again and recover, there are signals from your own body and voices in your head you have to ignore-to constantly neglect. There’s neurological pathways that have been fed by the conditioning of hunger. They are giving you false hope, false recognition, false satisfaction. It’s a constant battle inside your mind between your senses and your voices...which one is right? Is this even right? It doesn’t feel like it. It consumes you.
It’s tiring, it’s loud, it’s messy, and it’s overwhelming. It’s almost as if it would be easier to stay in the disorder, in the semi-recovery zone, where your body is still celebrated, where your choices and physical existence doesn’t have to be a protest every day.
This piece helped me overcome a lot of strong emotion these past couple months. It’s uncomfortable for me, but it’s my proof. My proof of what’s underneath what’s to come. I’ve thought about covering it up with a lighter, more precise water scene, that makes me feel happier, more content. So far it’s just My Proof."
Artwork Description :
"This art piece is about someone who has learned to love themselves and rebuild their relationship towards themselves and food; from one that is abusive/controlling/scarcity to a loving/nourishing/intuitive one. That then translates to passing that knowledge to others to learn how to love themselves and evolve beyond the frames of their past. Three women, the closest is the teacher, who are enjoying a smoothie/drink/juice but it is not just a beverage, it is more of an emotional nectar that they are sipping on. Learning not to just feed their bodies, but their minds, and ultimately their hearts."
I am married to a man that I met at a writing group and have 2 big dogs that bring a lot of joy to my life. I like to go camping and hiking and spend time with my friends and family. I have been a registered nurse for 10 years and work with people who have mental health issues and people with drug and alcohol addictions. I have been in recovery from my eating disorder since Oct 2013.